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My first thought when I woke up this morning was “Where are we going to for breakfast?”.   We usually go somewhere to gorge ourselves with food on the weekends.   But I decided to make breakfast for a change.  The choice was pancakes or oatmeal.  Everybody chose pancakes so that’s what I made for them, but I made oatmeal for myself.  I made enough for two people for some reason, but only ate a fourth of it all.  That stuff fills me up quick.

Lunch was a salad and the last of the fried okra in the freezer.  Dinner was a bowl of cereal and chocolate cake which is not good.  But as a whole, today has been tame in comparison to other days.   I did forget to weigh myself this morning tho.   I probably won’t do it tomorrow either since I see myself rushing out the door to get to physical therapy on time at 9am.

I spent the day cleaning up, so that’s been my exercise for the day.

I’m feeling ready to pick up my weight loss efforts where I left it off at.  Thankfully, last I checked, I hadn’t regained anything.     That was more than 3 weeks ago tho, and I think I’ve been pigging out quite a bit during that time.

So I’ll try to remember to weigh myself in the morning and go from there.

I signed up to sparkpeople.com.  It’s free.  :)  and pretty nice for free.

And although I feel like maybe I have, my clothes don’t fit any better and the scale says the same thing it has been saying for months.  177lbs.  That’s still 10 lbs down.  That, thankfully, hasn’t changed despite having gorged myself with food a couple times.

I haven’t set a new 5lb goal in a long time because I’m just not ready.  All my motivations of late have been directed at other things like cleaning and decluttering the house.

One thing has changed tho.  Since my shoulder surgery left me unable to keep food down for the first 2 days post op, I had been eating a lot of salads.  That hasn’t helped with my chronic constipation, but maybe it’s helping to debloat myself somehow.

I guess I’ll just keep doing what I’m doing until I’m ready to do more.

I honestly don’t know how (or if I can truly believe) I lost 10 lbs since the start of the year.   I’ve been down 10 lbs for a few days now but I had to wait and see if my scale wasn’t smoking crack or something.   I must have been retaining water 7 days ago because the weight just plummeted in 1 or 2 days.   I do remember LOTS of trips to the head tho, so that thought is probably not so far off the mark.

I’m incredulous because I don’t feel a significant change in how my clothes fit.  Only difference is that I can get my belt on the 4th notch.  It used to be 2nd or 3rd depending on levels of bloatedness, but I still have a life saver around the middle.  And my boobs still spill over my pre-Maya bras.

I should feel better about this, but I haven’t even been exercising.  I think that losing the next 10lb is going to require that I start using my treadmill.  Oh,  I keep forgetting how much I’ve been running around the house to clean things up.  So…  maybe I haven’t been as sedentary as I keep telling myself.

Anyways, I know I don’t sound as estatic as maybe I should be, but somewhere deep inside, I’m hopping around snapping my heels ‘n stuff and singing badly.  I haven’t weighed 178 since 2005.    10 more LESS pounds will take me back to 2003.

Remember these little popping fuckers?

Well, as I’ve discovered, they’re the best thing for people trying to lose weight.   You know why?  Because one packet is only 35 calories!!  and it has zero fat (as candy shouldn’t).   They’ve been great way to satisfy my sweet tooth cravings.  And they’re just obnoxious enough in the mouth to do the job!

I’ve gone and bought myself a case of these things.  Crazy..  but better than sneaking entire bars of 3 Musketeers!

I have lost 6 lbs total since January 1st.   I lost 7 but gained one back this week.  I think that last lb is water weight.   You can’t really gain or lose a pound in two days, but who knows.

I’ve been following the weight watchers diet for 2 weeks now and it has been easy until Thursday.   I had spent a lot of time feeling hunger pains but that is easier to deal with than mad cravings. On wednesday night I had a frozen pizza and I think that screwed me up really good, because on Thursday all I could do was think about food.  I had things like a slice of cheese and a slice of bologna, spaghetti, then a mini-pizza I make from english muffins.    I also had stopped logging the food that day which makes it real easy to ignore how it adds up.

2 days later I sat down and logged it all from memory.   I was shocked to see that the mini-pizza was only 5 pts, but the bologna was 2pts.  For what you get, 2 pts for a single slice of bologna is really ridiculous.  The pizza would have been less if I had made it with fat free cheese and it makes for a nice little meal.  Something to keep in mind next time I go shopping.

Today was another “wash” except that now that I logged it all in, it doesn’t look as bad as I had imagined.   I went to the movies and had popcorn shrimp and curly fries.  Then later I got a small caramel macchiatto.   With skim milk.   Thank god cuz it woulda been more otherwise.

Anyway, I’m not sure what to make of this points system but it has worked so far.  I always wondered how so many people lose weight on it, and I think it has something to do with calling it ‘points’.   It makes it seem like some game and the more you eat, the more you lose on points.