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I forgot to mention here that I decided to join an eDiets challenge. I think it might help to boost or at least maintain my motivation level. It’s funny, I have no real plan other than “sticking to it”.  The last 2,3 challenges I joined on eDiets were a flop. I have decided that if I can’t stick to this one, I’m just going to cancel my membership there and do this without it. There’s no sense in paying the fees if I’m not going to use it.

The other online thingamabob I plan to be using is my CalorieKing account. It’s time to renew it, actually. I can’t say I ever like the community there as much as the eDiets one but their food database is, by far, the best I’ve ever seen anywhere. I’ll be logging cals there, but not blogging there. Ironic that now that they’ve finally made the changes I’ve always wanted them to make, which I suggested to them, I won’t be using it. Oh well..

In four days, I intend to start something. I’m not sure what it will be exactly but it’ll be something. Some effort to become a bit healthier. At best it will be the start of a long journey to lose 40 lbs. At worst it will be just a little more exercise, a little less Wendy’s.

This is NOT a New Year’s resolution. My last resolution took place more than 10 years ago and it was to never make another resolution because they all seemed doomed to failure. I just needed a starting point and 1/1/07 seemed as good a starting point as any to me. It would have been earlier but the holiday season was a real busy one and there was always something stopping me from selecting a start date.

So this week I am doing a lot of “lasts”. Or rather, “lasts for a while”. Yesterday I had my last Wendy’s lunch …for a while. Today, I might go to Checkers. I haven’t been there in a while. Maybe tonight or tomorrow I’ll order chinese. I dunno.

What prompted me to wanna do this?

Feeling like I have a spare tire around my middle for one. You really don’t realize how extra weight can impede your mobility until you have the extra weight. Bending over had never been so challenging before. Getting on all fours to look for something under a couch sends blood rushing to my face and gives me a headache until I sit back down for a while. My hips are in pain most of the time. My body is just not functioning well anymore. I don’t know how people who are 60,80,100 lbs overweight can even walk! My body could not withstand it.

The second thing that worries me is blood clots. Sure I don’t smoke and I’m not on the pill but it worries me nonetheless. What if I got a blood clot in a leg because of poor circulation? I could die.

Thirdly, and probably what bothers me daily is how my clothes fit me. I have had to buy XL clothes. Size 16 pants now, and I don’t like how they fit. My mid section is the worst because I look bloated and pregnant. A wide waist, I’ve read, should worry me more than a wide ass or wide thighs. I’ve read that it means I have fat around my major organs. I’ve known this already and it’s scary.

And Lastly, I have had a series of “strange” things happen to me. Pimples in places that would send you running if you tried popping. Just a few days ago I woke up with a pimple on my lip. It wasn’t a little one either and it was smack in the middle of my lip. Also recently I have had a lot of problems with my feet. Pain and strange itchiness and thick callouses. My nails are separating and tearing off.

So, that should be enough excuses for anyone to want to make some health changes.